I feel so tense, it’s 3:30am
My heart is pounding through my body
An irrational fear has gripped me
I stand looking out of my window
Inhaling cold air as though it’s my last
I lay down my legs twitching uncontrollably
This will end but how? Is this THE end?
I lay listening to the radio
Thoughts whirling in and out of focus
I try to distract Myself but it’s no use
The wings of black are smothering me
It can’t be fought I can only accept it
The contract has been signed
My soul is now yours to keep
You have won the war I can no longer battle
I surrender to the devil within.